When we pulled up to Kane’s house, he had an area roped off for parking. I pulled into the grass and parked next to a white Cadillac. It was Don, a mutual friend of mine and Kane’s. He was still sitting in his car and we gave each other a wave. I was expecting to know maybe 15-20 people there. It was usually 80% the same crowd each year, and the rest was new faces. Kane and his wife and I had a few mutual friends, and I knew his family and some of his other close friends. The other probably 80 people who showed up would be nothing more than a mix of familiar and unfamiliar faces to me.

As Don got out of his car, I shut my truck off. He stood behind his car waiting on me to get out. I looked over at Kay, checking her phone, and my mind wandered back to her texting Patrick. I thought back to just 20 minutes earlier, walking into the store to buy him a bottle of whiskey. It started to sink in that Kay had made me buy a gift for the guy she was planning to fuck tonight. I felt pretty small as I came back to reality and saw Don in my mirror still waiting on me. Kay and Alyssa’s doors opened. I followed suit and got out of the truck.

I greeted Don, and introduced him to Kay. “Have you two met? This is Kay,” I said, putting my arm around her. She said hello, and Don and her smiled at each other. Kay sort of wiggled out of my arm around her and said “get the cooler babe.” She looked back at Don and said, “and this is my friend Alyssa, by the way.” As I set the cooler down and stood up to close the tailgate, I looked over and Don was reaching for Alyssa’s hand. “Nice to meet you both,” he said, softly shaking her hand.

Don was holding a 6 pack, and Alyssa offered for him to put it in our cooler. “Sure!” he said. I opened the lid and he buried his beers in ice, then the four of us started walking toward the house. We made small talk while we walked. Don brought up another friend, “do you know if Wayne is coming?” “No, I haven’t talked to him in a while,” I replied. I saw Kay check her phone, and I kind of zoned out for the rest of the walk.

I didn’t know if she was checking her messages or what. But I thought of Patrick again. It started to hit me that, no one here knew about our lifestyle. Don’s beer was in the same cooler as Patrick’s whiskey. I was beginning to worry that some of my friends were going to learn something very personal and very embarrassing about me tonight. “I wonder if the guy even knows Kay and I are dating,” I thought to myself. It was eating at me.

“Does Patrick know we’re dating?” I asked Kay. I probably should have waited to ask, but something came over me and I had to know. “I don’t think so,” she started to say, but Don cut her off. “That guy is fucking wild… You’re talking about tall Patrick that was here last year?” I must have turned a little red. “Fuck, Don knows him,” I thought. Kay replied, “yeah, he’ll be here tonight.”

Don and Alyssa had been chatting it up a little while I was zoned out. He looked back at her and said, “definitely don’t play him in beer pong…or don’t bet on it if you do!” He chuckled, and Alyssa laughed with him. She replied, “uhh…should I find myself in that situation, I’ll let someone else make the bets.” They both chuckled again. Alyssa glanced my way with a smirk. “Fuuuuuck.” I thought to myself. I felt my dick twitch and grow slightly as a couple of scenarios played out in my head. But I was starting to become terrified at the same time. I don’t want all these people to know that I’m a cuck.

We walked past the house and around back where there was already a small fire going and 10-12 people standing around. It was still early. The band had just showed up and were still unloading their gear. By their looks, they’d definitely be playing country and maybe some classic rock. Kay wasn’t thrilled about that, I could tell.

Kane walked out of the house with a beer in his hand and walked over to say hello to me. He knew Kay, but not too well. She’d been there with a friend previously. He looked at her and said, “good to see you – is Jeanette coming or did we scare her off last year?” Kay laughed and replied, “she said she’ll be here, so I guess we’ll have to try harder this year.” Kane got a kind of cheesy smile on his face and said, “we can do that!” I spoke up and introduced Alyssa. Alyssa said, “I’m just her partner in crime for the night.” She made a head motion toward Kay as she said it and she threw me another devious little smirk. I felt my heart skip a beat and thought, “please shut up.” But I don’t think Kane thought much of it. Shortly after, he walked away, being summoned by some other folks.

I guess it was another hour or so before the party was really hopping. The band started playing and a lot more people showed up. Kane and his wife had set up all the food and there was a mob over by the food tent. Don was still hanging out with the three of us, waiting out the food crowd, when I first saw Patrick. I spotted him walking over from the food tent area. Kay had her back to him. I watched him and we locked eyes a couple of times as he walked toward our little crowd. He walked up behind Kay and squeezed in beside her, laying his hand on her lower back. She turned and looked up at him. “Oh hey!!” She said excitedly. She turned to face him. “I’m so glad you made it!” She said, looking up at him. He smirked at her smugly and said, “wouldn’t miss it. Who ya here with?” His right hand was still resting on her hip. Before she could answer, Don interrupted. “Hey man, good to see you,” Don said. He stepped toward Patrick and reached out to shake his hand, noticing where it was resting.

As Patrick acknowledged Don, Kay turned and stepped toward me. She grabbed my hand and pulled me back toward Patrick. She answered, “I came with my boyfriend and my bestie of course,” pointing toward Alyssa with her free hand. Patrick turned and looked Alyssa over. “Hey, I’m Patrick,” he said. “Alyssa,” she replied. He looked back at me, and then at Kay. “I wasn’t aware you had a boyfriend,” he said. He didn’t break his gaze with Kay as he continued, “why did you bring him?” He said it with a straight face, which he held for a second. Just as Kay started to speak, “beca..” Patrick cut her off and started laughing. “I’m just messing with you,” he said. I was really uncomfortable and didn’t say anything. Kay laughed with him, still holding my hand. I looked at Don, who was giving me an awkward look, as Alyssa spoke up, “should we leave him at home next time?” Patrick laughed harder as he turned toward Alyssa and replied, “no, we might need a DD!”

Kay turned to me and wrapped her arms around me. “Aww, yes, he’s our DD!” She gave me a kiss and leaned into me. “You’re so fucked tonight,” she whispered in my ear, then moved back and winked at me.

My girlfriend (Kay) has a very close friend (Alyssa) who she tells pretty much everything. They used to get into trouble together in high school. Alyssa has been in a serious relationship for years, but always seems to have a side piece that her fiance doesn’t know about. She tells Kay about her adventures, but I don’t think she really gets to see her side guy all that often.

Naturally, when Kay told Alyssa I was a cuck, Alyssa was jealous. They talked about it some and Kay told stories about some of the fun things we’d done. Kay and I have only been dating a few months, so things haven’t gotten too wild yet, but we’ve talked about ramping things up pretty heavily and I’ve told her that I want her to push my limits. She told Alyssa all this, of course.

One of Alyssa’s first questions was about where she finds guys to hook up with. Kay told her she has met a couple of guys online, but really likes to flirt out in public and try to pick up guys right in front of me, and those have been some of her favorite times. Alyssa got really excited about this and said she really wanted to see. So Kay invited her to come out with us the following weekend to a big annual hog roast that a close friend of mine does.

My friend Kane lives on 400 acres of family land. I’d guess nearly 100 people show up to his hog roast every year. He does it in the early fall and usually has a local band play and a couple of big bonfires. BYOB and a tent in case you can’t drive home. It always ends up being a good time, although there’s usually a fight or something eventful that goes on. Last year’s fight was over some dude’s girl trying to leave with another guy.

Funny enough, that’s how Kay and I met. I made a joking comment that night like, “let her go, she might have a good time!” And Kay laughed at me. That turned into a philosophical conversation about how I don’t think you could stop a girl who wants to fuck someone else, and why even try… She’ll just resent you for it and leave anyway. She said “what’s the answer then? Just let her do it?” I said “I mean yeah if you have an emotional connection and still wanna be with her, at the end of the day sex is just sex.” Kay was dating someone else at the time. They broke up soon after and her and I started talking several months later after she slid into my DMs.

Anyway, Alyssa showed up at my place the day of the hog roast. Kay wasn’t technically living with me yet, but she was there most of the time. It was the first time I’d seen Alyssa since Kay had told her about me being a cuck. When Alyssa walked in, she followed Kay over to the kitchen where I was standing, and gave me a smirk. The kind of smirk that said “I know something you don’t.” I gave her a cheeky, awkward greeting with her own name. “Alyssa…” I said, smirking back, knowing what she now knew about me.

“How are you?” She asked. “Fine,” I said, “did you bring a tent?” I asked her. “Kay said you have a big one… uh, tent, that is…” She smirked again, proud of her pun. Kay said, “I mean I’ve definitely seen bigger.” They looked at each other and laughed. Alyssa cleared her throat. Her face turned a little bit red, she hesitated, and then said, “recently?” She looked at me and then back at Kay, who replied, “Mm, yes but not recently enough.” Alyssa spoke more confidently as the red left her face, “well… If we’re lucky, maybe somebody just needs a tent for one tonight…” She looked at me and winked as she said “one”. The red that left her face must have gone into mine. I’d never let anyone else know I was a cuck. I felt so embarrassed.

If I knew Kay though, she had no plans to sleep in a tent. I’d also bet that if they had talked about this, she already had a guy in mind. Kay had a particular type in men. Especially in the men she would cuck me with. She liked the bad boy, metal head type. Tall, muscular, tattooed… I thought back to last year’s hog roast and who all was there. It’s hard to remember so many faces. I could only think of one guy I’d seen there in the past who was a dead ringer for Kay’s type. The only problem though is, I couldn’t stand the guy.

I didn’t really know the guy to well, but he didn’t like me either. He had an arrogance about him that pissed me off. His name was Patrick. I think he was a family friend of Kane’s wife maybe. The first time we met, I’d turned down a shot because I don’t drink, and he called me a pussy. I gave him an “okay pal” kind of look. He was nearly drunk already. He turned to his friend and said, “who’s this fucking guy? I’ll slap that look off his face.” He was way bigger than me so I just looked away from him. “That’s what I thought,” I heard him say. The next time I met him was at last year’s hog roast. He was dead sober and remembered me. “Hey you old enough to drink yet?” He said as he laughed. I didn’t say anything back to him.

“Are you ready to go babe?” Kay asked. I snapped back to reality. I looked her up and down and she looked so hot. Fuck, I hope she wasn’t thinking about taking to Patrick tonight. “Yeah.” I responded. Kay said, “okay, bring your cooler so we can stop and get drinks.” I threw the cooler in the truck as well as a tent and some blankets just in case we stayed long enough that I was too tired to drive.

On the way we stopped at a store for drinks and ice. Kay turned and looked at Alyssa in the back seat and said, “he’s buying, tell him what you want.” Alyssa said, “I don’t care, whatever you guys get.” Kay said, “he’s not getting any, just you and me.” Alyssa chuckled and said, “aww are we still talking about beer?” She reached up and patted me on the shoulder. Kay chuckled too, and said, “don’t sympathize with him. We deserve this, girl.” Alyssa said, “we do! What’s the guys name again” Kay replied, “Patrick.” Alyssa said, “yeah, get whatever he would like.”

“Fuck!” I thought to myself. “Yes!!!” Kay said, turning to me, “he drinks whiskey… Get something good, I want to do a shot with him!” “Me too!” Alyssa said. Kay continued, “and get blue moon for us.” I gave Kay a questioning look. “Are you serious? I’m not buying whiskey for that dude, he’s a dick!” I said. Her eyes widened. “Excuse me?” She said. I said, “babe come on… Have you been talking to him?” Kay said “I have.”

I rolled my eyes. “That’s not cool, I can’t stand that dude.” Alyssa was quiet in the back seat. Kay said, “he’s been trying to hit me up for a while. You said you wanted to turn things up and push your limits.” I pleaded, “but not with him!” Alyssa spoke up, trying to smooth things over, “you said there would be a ton of other guys there too.” Kay ignored her, looked at me and spoke firmly, “don’t tell me who I can’t fuck. You’ll regret that and you know it. Now hurry up.” I slammed the truck into park and went inside to get drinks and ice, making sure to get some water for myself.